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my heart hurts

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 06:45:37 GMT

im lonely

i want to feel beautiful
i want to feel loved
captivating
cared for
needed

i want love
but then i dont
i want to shine on my own
but i dont

i just want love
to be loved
to feel beautiful
to feel
.....woah...

im lonely
thats my soul
bare and naked
i want love
thats it

prince charming better be late

not MIA....
i hope not...

miss this and you

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 03:42:22 GMT

man ive been gone for a while...
i love and miss you guys!
uttah your the love of my life
val i heart you mucho
molly is my sexy beast
and katie
your sweetness has yet to be rivaled!!!
i love you guys
i miss you lots
and im sorry for being a myspace whore :(

i miss...

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 02:23:40 GMT

so its been so long an icant help but want to go back...
things are differet right now.
i cant put my finger on it but they are....
so i love you all!!!
and myspace has stolen my soul:(
hehe que sad! much love homies!!!

LETS START THE BIDS!!!

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 04:33:56 GMT

so peeps i am now opening the bid on my dignity..
Shall we start at oh 5 dollars..
AND GO!!!!!

went to "la cantera" ugh...
so yeah every now and then i wish for some refinement and class...who doesnt?
i wish i had a new york life..live in an up town loft walk through central park(during the day)
sip lates blah blah blah
OR maybe a simple mountain /sea side life...
live in the nountains by the sea
surf and climb..see snow...
OR a small town life....
tiny house, cardigans....a boston terrier.
OR a london apartment...yeah...foggy days...British pop...country club elitism
and PUBS
I dont know i wish i could live in the JCREW catalogs..
i know its fake...but i love the class..refinement..breeding..eh
when i go to places where i feel dirty i know that there is something wrong.
REAding pride and prejudice
i wonder how i would be if i was an "accomplished girl"
I love thier life style..ladys with taste
i dont like the limits on thier lives however..
then my pride begins to boil and i want to be a rebel
unlike everyone else
but then i am like everyone else....
whatever..

the bid has ended
DIGNITY SOLD TO THE YOUNG GROUP OF CAUCASIANS SHOPPING wITH MOMMIES aND DADDIES credit cards!

eh.....

FUCKING DOUCHES!!!!

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 21:36:52 GMT

so yeah little times do i ever get offended but when a douche who i dont even know tries to leave a stupid bullshit comment on shit he knows nothing of thats whe i cross the line!
so uttah recieved a comment on his lj by some gay ass MONARCHKING and it ticked me off!
so yeah i think he might be gay and i dont discriminste at all though i do have my religious beliefs but damn hes such a douche!
I love my friends and dont EVER EVER LEAVE A FAGGOTY COMMENT LIKE THAT OR I WILL GET FUCKING PISSED!
i am a very jealous person w/my friends...hurt one...offend one... and I WILL HAVE UR BALLS ON A FUCKING PLATE!!!!

anywho lunch was fine but i missed my band nerds!! hehe nerds rule!
hope everything was fine at the band thing!
but yeah that pretty much it. latahs!

I DONT BELIEVE?

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 21:34:08 GMT

so here i am ..homecoming day and crying..
why?
i cant stop
everytime i get started
i cant stop
suddenly my eyes swell up and i cry.
heres what started it:

GAbriel(pastor boy)
soo okay he has a girlfriend named sarah and well b4 we began to talk they were already talking
anywho she was like a rowdy ho...so to speak..she is also a pastors daughter...
anywho she would jerk him around alot, she was a big tease.
so we were talking then we stopped and they were talking again...
so she came to church and my sisters were like ooh shes a bitch
shes ugly
blah blah blah
but when i met her she was very pretty!!!!
very pretty
soo anywho she has a little sister and well one day her parents asked the church to pray for her duaghter because she has cancer!
we thought it was the little one but it was sarah..
so like i thought it wasnt that big o deal
but its "hodgkins" lymphoma
stage three
malignant...

yesterday i was driving with gabe downtown going towards the hotel and well we were talking
and i asked how she was and he explained all that was gonna happen,her condition,and chemo
soo he said something that i will NEVER FORGET
due to the passion in his voice..
he said
(after i explained about what might happen...her dying...)
"Syl DONT TALK LIKE THAT,thats not even an option..im gonna marry this girl..shes the one..
I already talked to GOD..and lord i will do your bidding,ill do your work and minister to your people,but i want the girl of my choice and i choose sarah."

he talked with such love and emotion that i couldnt help but want to cry..he loves her sooo much
can you imagine loving someone with that passion?
and then i thought about he calls me sweetie and says i love you
because ya know we're soo close!
hes like a brother and when he hugs me he hugs me with a deep passion that
means he just wants me to hold him..to reassure him..but i cant
or i havent..its like ive been such a bad friend and i dont know...
i love him soo much and i dont want him to get hurt
but he might and that scares me soo much!
hes been there with all the shit we've been through with my brother and i feel like i cant
NOT LET HIM GET HURT..

If i could spare each of my friends pain I would..i would..
but i cant and that hurts me soo much

and while we were in my room
he was on my bed w/my laptop and i was about to close the door
when he said
"It'll be okay all we have to do is have faith in the lord
he does these things for a reason..all we need is faith."

all i said was "hah."

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 21:19:33 GMT

Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally

Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story

and it's okay if you have to go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you said

sigh.....

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 21:31:03 GMT

im soo ugh i dont know
ive told him already how i feel
its not like he doesnt know
but hes still hurt by you and isnt ready for a relationship
but we talk soo much on the phone
30 min
45 min
1 hour
1 and 1/2
2 hours
2 and 1/2
3....and we never run out of things to say...
always talking
joking laughing
its like weve been living parallel lives
serously hes been through the same things
Everything...
ehh but then again whos to say i wont run again ....i do everytime
sigh....
well im happy being loved as a friend
i can be okay with it
i am
am i..?

he make me feel like...drops of jupiter

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 05:50:36 GMT

Drops of Jupiter

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's time to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

i think im scared now

POEM FROM SOME WIERD GUY

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:21:44 GMT

"What do you believe in?
Anything?
You can tell me, I won't judge you, or make fun.
Unless of course it's funny.
Then I will laugh and mock you.
And you will be forced to be insulted.
And your feelings will probably get hurt.
And we won't be friends any longer.
And we can't have that now can we.
Can we?

VEry strange eh..
hmm i dont like that sometimes other people who are poets
can capture better what I want to say
than i can
does that make me unoriginal? or is everyone unoriginal?

todays the day.
3:30-4:00pm
goodbye all

MY SPACE DILEMMA!

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 20:38:55 GMT

IF I HAVENT ANSWERED COMMENTS SENT MESSAGES OR ANYTHING ON MYSPACE ITS CUZ MY COMPUTER HASNT WOKED FOR ABOUT A WEEK.
SOO WHEN I GET IT FIXED ILL MESSAGE EVERYONE AND LEAVE LOADS OF COMMENTS
TILL THEN KEEP IT COOL!

SNOWFLAKES MELT!!!!!!!!

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 20:36:19 GMT

i feel weird.
literally.
things are better....i know they are...but i cant help feeling sad.
things at home...are better too... but im just scared because i know that temptation is everywhere.
i feel sad..i laugh cause ya know im happy
but deep down theres a sadness.
I talk and people listen (saying this without being cocky or conceited)
but you know, when you talk there is at least one person who listens
and when they talk i zone out.
lost in my own thoughts.
its rude
i dont mean to be mean but its hard.
i feel like i want to be heard and thats it.
just let me talk.
dont answer if u dont want.
just give me a hug
not all things can be answered.
i laugh but i dont want to TRY and make u laugh .
if i do its by accident
im not being mean but yeah i just need to laugh.
i need sleep
i feel weird
this is not me.
I need to talk to you.
who?
you.
you know who you are.
I miss being close to you
when we were close i felt protected like nothing was impossible.
a child like innocence
i felt in love with love, with life
deep down i knew you were always with me
it was like i was IT
i didnt need all this
i hate not being close to you
i feel soo out of touch.
i know if we dont talk that i will never be right.
i need your forgiveness
i need you to know im sorry
IM SORRY!!!!!
i didnt mean all those things!
i never meant to say that you were an asshole
i never meant to question you!
i never meant to yell at you like i did!
but you hurt him
you took him away!
why him!?
FUCK! why not me?!
WHY!!
but you hurt me too
what did i ever do to you!
i was what i thought u wanted.

im sorry,im sorry,imsorry, im sorry, im sorry,imsorryimsorryimsorry imsorry imsorryimsorry imsorry im sorry im sorry im sorry imsorry im sorry imsorryimsorryimsorry imsorryimsorryimsorrryimsorryimsorry imsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorrryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorrimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry..please come back god.
5 more days.

love it

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 20:20:25 GMT

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time...
Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy
You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while
You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What's Your Fashion Style?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.
People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.
You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.
Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.
You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

You Are Boot Cut Jeans

You're fashionable and sexy - in an understated way.
You're more about looking good than following the latest look of the week.

What Style of Jeans Are You?

Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art

Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot!

What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

DO not WEEP JOYFUL ONE!!!!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 20:42:07 GMT

ive just finished reading utters entries and they make me both sad and mad.
NO ONE IS PERFECT and im gonna argue this both ways.
1. we are all different and we are all outspoken due to our long friendships with each other. we influence each other more than we realize. WE go on and on about every one else and how conformist and unoriginal they are, or laugh at them when sometimes we display those same faults.
SAdly Molly is the only one i can say is truly original along with utter and a few others. ALso think before you speak...(right i should talk) but this is different, before you go and call someone something, look at yourself first. When this pertains to friends its usually more touchy. PEt names and nicknames are cute, only when the other person agrees. now why doesnt that person say something? WEll we cant all be forceful..maybe you should try reading body language...i mean your not gonna ask your ask questions during a 15 min sexcapade? " im i doing this right?" "do you like this?" "sweety how do you like this?" "is it in yet?" ALso isnt it contradictory when you call someone fat if you weigh more than 170lbs!
TOO harsh sorry..but true
AS for random people that we say things about...yeah there is a time and volume for everything. Im all for the "i say what i say, when i want and if you dont like it then fuck you!"
Only when your opinion is being threatend not your JOKE! besides not all can fight and one day someone wont take it from you and...welll....
I love our friends
but sadly i cant tell who i am..my fault i guess..but when you love or admire someone or ur friends you cant help but want those characteristics.
I love all
I admire zannas beauty and happy nature
Mollys strength and self confidence long with her ability to analyze
Utters ability to comfort me with hugs and his laid back nature
Josies sexy cartoons
Katies laughter
JEN JENs art and quiteness
JAmies poetry
Jennifer naivety
jens shoulder to cry on
Justins random ghettoness.."i will cut a bitch!"
amys humor
destinys....

Its sad but after wnating to see the best in people
its hard when all they do is tear down the good that they build of you
WE all need to be ourselves
and i think the only ones who really know me
are
Jen
zanna
molly
utter
jen jen
jose c
and alek

WE are all special...LIKE SNOW FLAKES!!!

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 13:49:57 GMT

saturday was very fun
danced and talked to old friends and great friends
sunday likewise fun, yet...
went to kelly A.F.B to see if any rufugees wanted to go to church.
I hate calling them refugees
I dont know why
it wasnt at all as i thought it would be
but it is still very depressing
yeah you hear that alot but its true
anywayz we got alot of kids
Qwon
Roneesha
CAshius
tracy
Kairah
aorthor
etc.

sunday night.. doing home work.
ya know i cant speak for anyone else but i dont think ive ever felt depressed
truly depressed
sure we all have felt down at times
heart broken
sad
longing for something, someone
but last night i caught it
its not dramatic
not a sudden rush of emotion
it creeps up on you
makes you anxious
you begin to tap your fingers
shake you leg
you walk around a bit
searching for something thats not there
or someone
then i broke i couldnt help it
i stopped later only to feel the same
it wont leave
its nice and settled

just 30 more days.......

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 20:41:11 GMT

well another entertaining day. Loraines birthday i feel like a jerk....i wish i knew
well johnny called me yesterday
i didnt know until I checked my phone
I called back big mistake...
I knew it wasnt going to be great from the moment he answered the phone
jerk off..he sounded like i was bothering him
and the reasonhe called,was to see if i could go visit him....oh yes sir,right away!!!DOUCHE!
anyway the conversation was mainly about him, or me trying to get a conversation going...
apparently annettes not pregnant and again he asked where i heard that lie....uh your mom!
so when he finally asked me about ME, it was like he didnt care
I told him about swimming and school and how i was planning on joining the navy...
And he exact words were "wow you've really changed, your not the same silvia, its like im at point A and your at point B,"
basically he was blaming me for us not being close when HELLO
"YOur the one who left to wisconsin
your the one who left brack and got annette pregnant
YOUR THE ONE WHO GAVE UP
GAVEUP ON SCHOOL, SAN ANTONIO, YOUR FAMILLY....me"
then i almost began to cry
so his last words were
"yeah silvia I gave up...I gave up.."
DAMN IT!
its not fair
but he did give up
he gave up on me
gave up on us
I WAS ALWAYS THERE!
i was the one who was fucked up freshmen and sophmore year
I grew apart from my dearly loved friends because of him
I hurt my self
hurt my family my friends

am i not worth it
couldnt he have tried harder
why did he give up
same johnny
its all about him
i couldnt help but cry
cry
cry cry crycrycrycrycrycrycrycrycrycrycry
always crying

whenever im alone with you
you make me fell like im home again
whenever im alone with you
you make me feel like im am whole again
whenever im alone with you
youi make me fell like i am young again
whenever im alone with you
you make me fell like i am fun again
HOWEVER FAR AWAY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
HOWEVER LONG I STAY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
WHATEVER WORDS I SAY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

amazingly when i first said i love you
i didnt feel it
my how things change

sukas

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 20:29:05 GMT

well well here we meet again
uttah uttah where are ya ho!

FIRST FRIDAY!!!!WOOOOHHH

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 20:25:53 GMT

went to first friday twas fun
got there a little late cuz jen had to wash her parents truck...then it rained..that sux!
WENt with SHLori,camille,gen gen,alek,jen,zanna,ulysees(zanna's bf)and becca
I saw loris picture called deja vu and LOVEEEEDDDD IITTT!!! it was sooo gorgeus
CAmille looked totally hot(with my shoes) and i loved the concept.
ZAnna and gen gen pitched in to buy camilles photograph of her sister in her grandmas wedding dress(wich camille loved) and gave it to her....
now that is friendship.
Saw some of the old senior's like cynthia and angelica,said hi!
bought earings from that lady micha and went to espoumas where we all took pictures of our shoes and where we tried to get gen gens beef jerky out of its wrapper.
who wouldve thought that squeezing meat out of plastic would be so hard?
WEll we got it out
NO THANKS TO ALEK!!!
and needless to say gen enjoyed her meat stick.
ALso,made fun of lori who looked pregnant,even though that was a great shirt/blouse. LUV YA LORI!! want some zuchinni bread?
THe whole night was great it was just what i needed
except when other AMy(kamberline)showed up and ate half my ice crrream sandwich...bitches..eh all in all it was great!!
P.S that indian guy isssss soooooo HHHHOOOTTTT!!!

Dirty little secrets

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 20:37:42 GMT

Quiet little one with no where else to turn
turn and face the furry
red hot
burn
silent no dialogue
no words for you
always the silent
a martyr
are you weeping
are those yours
do you remember
hehehe you never say
hehehe you wouldnt say
find why
spiteful
everyone knows
dirty little secrets
awful shameful things never said
your parents asked to borrow a house
you dont remember him well do you?
you really do care... too ashamed to say?
you call her a bitch
you've never been in love
no ones ever really loved you
you threw yourself at all of them
lost it
lost it
whirring lights
a dose
music to numb the pain
lost it
lost it
way in the sky
coke head
didnt even remember
you were one in a million
literally
lost it
lost it
no one has ever approached you to say they agreed on a emotional level
cant have love so you settle on the second best thing
a quick emotional rollercoster done by half of the also emotionally void
you can thave it
cuz you dont give it enough
dirty little secrets never said
always quiet
no dialogue
spiteful
find why
all alone
you and your little secrets

eh

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 20:51:46 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

SILVIAAVILA
S	is for	Stylish
I	is for	Inspirational
L	is for	Lucky
V	is for	Virile
I	is for	Irresistible
A	is for	Adaptable
A	is for	Arty
V	is for	Virginal
I	is for	Innocent
L	is for	Luxurious
A	is for	Amazing

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Birthdate: March 9

Your birth on the 9th day of the month adds a tone of idealism and humanitarianism to your nature.

You become one who can work easily with people because you are broadminded, tolerant and generous.

You are ever sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you are very sympathetic and compassionate.

Your feeling run deep and you often find yourself in dramatically charged situations.

This 9 energy always tends to give more that it gets.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Failed the US Citizenship Test

Oops, you only got 5 out of 10 right!

Could You Pass the US Citizenship Test?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

You May Be a Bit Dependent ...

You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.

You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.

It's difficult for you to survive on your own...

And you don't reallly think you ever could.

What Personality Disorder Are You?

UGHHHHHHHH that sux!

Live life like you were dying

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 18:40:42 GMT

YOu cant control the length of your life just the depth.

EEEHHHHHH

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 20:45:36 GMT

well i was the "pits" literally haha
anywayz for those of you that dont know I was sweating like a prostitute in church and
had sweat marks eewww

i wish i could find someone who can show me life
a good life
is this good
is there anyone out there with a perfect life
havent felt any pain. i love gen gen
I love molly I love des
I love amy and my uttah
I love katie josie and other amy :)
I love jenefer jennifer and camille
I love Lori
I love Justin
I love jamie
I love zanna
I love all and i hope that you will never feel the pain I felt in this life time
I feel like crying
I havent cried decently since easter day
smother me god
Erase this fabric
Listen to the sky
we grew up to fast
falling apart
a memory of what it felt like
take all you want
I tried to help
are you stupid
we all love you
THink its fun!
haha jokes on you
another predicted outcome
that i denied
go ahead your already there
bye bye sweet friend
THE INFLUENCE....
In the dark
there lights a spark
where your imagination
runs wild.
little child, growing, knowing, wanting to be wild.
let your inhibitions fly like hair into the wind.
let every safety measure at home, you cannot win.
Follow us into this sleep where colors are a maze
change your daily eyewear
so i can never see your gaze
Enjoy the blissful moments
your soul is almost ours
enjoy this pretty wild child
eternity is more than hours.
SO, NOW wide awake again!
So now you really see
Your reflection has lost the love of life
and your eyes hold no more glee.

sHORT hair

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 18:18:06 GMT

I CUT MY hair BITCHES!!!
i NEEDED TO for swimming
I cant deal with high maintenence hair
uuuuuuugggghhh
any way the lady was nice
but i should have kept the piece of hair that she soo brutally swept up
OUCH IT HURT

my INNER THOUGHTS AS i SAT there
MOI: " ugh my face is ugly! maybe its the light
gross does my face really look that round...aahh that lady has the worst eyebrows ive ever seen
I wonder what shes getting done?...ohh high lights jesus she needs them. (sigh)
Ohh no a five year old, oh hes cute!!!!
Great silvia why dont you just become a child molester!!!
EWWW thats gross
Jesus that ladys eyebrows are sooo ugly!"
( uh yeah short but with the layers at the base. huh. no i want it cut straight across...yeah thats good thanks.)
" maybe i should talk to her"
( how long have you worked here?)
"great i started "chit chat"
" hey i wonder what this does"
"shit it wont stop!"
" lalalalalalallalalala"
" oh dude this kid has a rat taIL"
" EWW WHAT KIND OF MOTHER WOULD DO THIS!"
"oh theres the bitch now... i hope i dont get fat when im thirty..."
( all done, thanks yeah i really like it AND YA KNOW ALL THE ALL THE REST)
as i left: "IM BUYING A BOW FLEX"
weLL GUYS CANT WAIT TO SEE YALL and dont forget

1. never let your kid grow a rat tail
2. never call your kid skyler, a state, or any object, place or thing with a suffix
and 3. avoid needless chit chat

REPLY TO MOLLY OR life

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 02:37:49 GMT

I DONT WANT TO SOUND TOO EMOTIONAL OR LIKE A WHITE WOMAN ON HER RAG BUT HERE GOES....
Right now im happy
i cant wait for school, the prospect of finally being on the swim team with my friend jennifer(whose is probably my twin soul)is awesome
WE ARE GOING TO BE JUNIORS!!! werent we just awkward eighth graders calling ms. keuhl lumberjack and torturing fransisco
WE are all still friends,another triumph
how people just fall apart
ALso due to previous events in my family i realize how much i take for granted
we talk about not caring and wanting to give up
which is fine i respect what your saying, but hear me out
my brother is not with us now
no hes not dead
and i wont go into details
but he lost what to me is most important
his life has a limit now
OURS DOESNT
he cant expect to live a nortmal life
WE CAN
he probably wont get married
WE WILL OR CAN
we have the world at our disposal
we have us
this school year will be great
ive how easily your world can change
how you can lose your mind
how what you thought to be a right
is really agift
im excited about school
im excited about life
im excited about us
ccheer up molly cuz i love you unconditionally now and always
friends always do

JESUS IS MY DADDY!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 18:49:22 GMT

HEY GUYS I JUST GOT BACK FROM CHURCH CAMP AND IT WAS ACTUALLY PRETTY GOOD
THE PRAISE AND WORSHIP WAS FUN AND I GOT HIT ON BY A LIFE GAURD
THE FOLLOWING IS PART OF OUR MINI CONVERSATION
LIFE GAURD:" HEY ARE YOU HISPANIC?"
( ME LOOKIN AT MY SKIN LOOKIN AT HIM THEN AROUND)
me:"uH YEAH I AM"
LG: " OH YEAH YOU KINDA LOOK LIKE IT"
ME:"THANKS" (INNER MIND SAYING GOD IS THIS HICK STUPID)
LG:"yEAH WHATS YOUR NAME?"
( THINKIN I SHOULD SAY SOMETHING REALLY MEXICAN)
ME: "SILVIA"
LG: OH IM blah blah blah
( FORGOT NAME)
WELL ILL STOP THERE BUT JUST THE FACT THAT HE ASKED IF I WAS HISPANIC IS SUFFICIENT ENOUGH TO CONCLUDE THAT THIS GUY IS STUPID!!!! DANG INBREEDING!!
WELL OTHER THAN THAT THERE WERE WATER SLIDES
GO CARTS
HORSES
VOLLEYBALL
TUG A WAR
SWIMMING RELAYS
ART CONTESTS
"HULAH LUJAH"
AND MUCH MORE

BUT THE NUMBER ONE THING WAS THE OSCAR MAYER WEINER CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOH IT WAS AWESOME
BUT I DONT RECOMEND SHARING A ROOM WITH 16 GIRLS
FROM LIVINGSTON TX
EEEEEWWWWWWWWWW THEY HAD THE WORST ACCENTS AND KEPT TALKING ABOUT THEIR DOGS